Just came back from A.R Bernard Service. Totally awesome! I really feel impacted by his words today! I really feel that It was worth it to come so early to book the best seats! After that Suppose to go to my grandmother's house but I don't feel like going.
I really don't feel like going out for work tomorrow... I feel so tired. I rather go out with my CG people than to go work and earn so little.
I came for today's service with a terrible mood.... My mother started to say that I don't know how to appreciate the fact that Buddhism has help me in my life. How has forcing me to drink holy water Help me in my life!?!?!
I rather become a Christian than to go become Buddhism!I still can remember the time where this old aunt force me to drink this water that had burned paper in it. I didn't want to drink it but they forced me by beating me and scolding me. I could Still remember what she told me.
She told me that I am a naughty person and that I am totally different.She also told me that I am a failure. I could still remember I was still primary 1 when she said that.
Could you imagine how hurt I would feel? Ouch!
So many things happen in my primary school days! I don't even want to talk about it. =( It is totally terrible! I hate going back to my primary school but I miss all my Primary school friends.(Shermine,valerine. I think I spelled their names wrongly). Those were the good times..... I would always talk to her when I am feeling very low. I pray that I could meet her again someday...
I notice something really Important. Everyone I have talked to said that I look cheerful from the outside. Do I really look cheerful? I always look into the mirror only to see a teenager who is ugly. Hmm.... Maybe It is just me. Gotta start changing my mindset!
Anyways, I still have not started on my revision. I really ought to get ready for my N level Oral now or I am gonna be in trouble.
Really want to go out somewhere tomorrow. Oh well it is 9.40Pm here! bye!
Overall mood: Totally terrible but slightly happy(wish could talk to some one)
Overall day: Great and Awesome!

Labels: Have faith and nothing is impossible.

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