Just found out that my N-Level Oral Exam is on the 6th of july while my birthday is on the 8th july. Sad. :'( I don't think anyone will celebrate my birthday. I don't even think my father remembered about my birthday. So much for me remembering his birthday.....Nah! Just kidding I don't think I remembered his birthday as well.... Feel so bad now haha! XD I better stop playing a fool and get serious with my work now or I am sure gonna fail. Gonna have our School internal English oral exam on Thursday. Hope I can pass it with flying colours. =) Still trying to download some worship songs(Happy Day by Tim Hughes, etc) but so far no luck. Oh well, got to go now! bye!

Labels: Dream big but start small., Nothing is impossible in life

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Just came back after going D&T with a bunch of people(Why did i go when I also have nothing to do?0.o can't figure the answer.).
I feel so happy until my friends started to hate me just because I am a Christian. If you don't want to be friends with me, then you were never considered as a friend even though we have known each other for more than 6 years.(If you are reading this, We can be friends again if you apologies to me)
I want to pretend that my parents never hurl insults at me but they have gone too far..... Do you guys really think that I am not having stress? Do you really think that you are the only people that are stress?
I am also stressed out but it is just that I refuse to show it to anyone. I want to be remembered as a person who is always cheerful and hardworking.
I accept Christian in my life because I feel that I belong there and also the fact that God has helped me through my toughest times in my life.
If you don't like me becoming a christian, Too bad I can't help you! I refuse to bow down to become a Buddhist.
Opps! Getting too emotional here! =) didn't know I could say so much stuff.
anyways,I feel totally depressed now!~ Really wish someone could talk to me somehow~
I would seriously appreciate it if anyone other than my parents could talk to me right now by SMSing me.
I don't dare to SMS anyone cause I am totally afraid that the person will think I am annoying~.
I think I sound very desperate now... =P Oh well....

Labels: Have faith and be strong in yourself., I lost too much to just give everything up. I will never go down without a fight

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Yesterday went to service and after service I went out with my CG friends again and had fun at stadium.We went to the arcade and had fun playing together.
I really have to thank God for all this. I didn't know going to church can help strengthen relationship with other people.
When I was having a cold war with someone, I prayed for her to talk and I thought she would never talk to me again but just then, She SMS me and ask me to be friends. I feel this is a miracle. =)
Anyways, There is so many activity this July and N-Level Exam is so close!!!!!
I am so scared now since I am not ready for all this!! :'(
It is now 6.43am here now and I think I will have to follow my father to attend yet another pathetic class. I had to go their class since I don't understand a thing yet they expect me to learn something there...Hopeless! Haizzz! =.=""
I just found out that my hair is too long and I have to cut it after their class or else tomorrow school spot check will sure catch me!!!!!
Lastly, studying with F40 is a total regret, Didn't have anyone to talk to except her and Brenda.
Didn't know they wanted to study at church just because she is doing follow up with them.But still we didn't do anything in the end other than playing basketball and talking nonsense all day..... Really need to buckle up soon or my results will drop. =P
Oh well.... That all bye! won't be touching this blog when school reopens.... I will only update twice a week If I am lucky. =) Cya!
Good Luck To Everyone For N-Level Exam! Let's all clear it as 4N1 Students!

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Yesterday went to prayer meeting and started to pray for everyone including CHC people and all my pastors and my CG leader. First time in my life to pray with my CG leaders. Feel very tired after the prayers meeting for some reasons. I think I made a new friend from DV zone. =) Didn't know DV zone also have secondary 3 students.
I feel so stress since I have not finished my homework and I only have less than 3 days before school starts. =(
I think I am going to study for the last time with Jun Ren and the rest ba.
I miss everyone in school. Can't wait to go back there to say hi to everyone!Been hanging out with my CG for so long and had a great time with them.
I think my results had dropped very drastically. I really need to buckle up now and get ready for N level.
Anyways,I just discovered that my Birthday will fall at the same time as N level Oral Exam. :'(
I can celebrate my birthday anymore.
It is 8am now and I can't sleep due to some problems again.

Labels: I feel shattered by the events that has happen to me.

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yesterday follow up with my CG leader Darryl was EPIC! At first we wanted to do it at West Coast Plaza but then there isn't a appropriate place to do. Went to his house and went to book a games room to do the follow up. It feels totally weird.
Playing Pool and having a follow up at the same time feels strange.........
But still it was totally fun! Yes!
After that I went home and started to do my math homework but I got distracted the moment I saw Red Rain tattoo. I don't know why but I want the tattoo so badly now.
Started to sms everyone who been to their concert.
In the end, No one have the tattoo. :'( sad.
Oh well.... went to mess around with someone via sms.Too bad I lost in the argument.:-P
There will be Prayer Meeting today at 5 pm and nobody is coming other than me.
Still have not finished my math's homework and I still have other things to do. Why must give us 6 pieces of exam papers when other classes get 4 only??
Oh well... Going to work soon(Can't believe they want me to finish the filing when It is already like shyt le) to pull some of my hair's out.
I wonder who work there before me? How come everything there is so messy before I came?
How come they pay her at $1200 a month to drink coffee and read newspaper when I only get $500 a month and I contributed a lot to the company?I compounded their stock list in 3 days where she took at least a week.I design the place up to make it look nice while she only sit there to watch?Screw up sia!
I think after N level Finish I will go threaten him! If still less than $1000 a month then I might as well go orchard to work($120 a day and the working hours are way shorter than this).
Anyways, Still making some improvements to my blog, Changed the skin already so now just need to add in a few improvements then I am done. =)

Labels: Let's do this together.

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I feel so tired yesterday. Went to do F&N yesterday in school and managed to finish everything. After that went straight to work only to find that my boss does not need me for morning shift. He asked me to come back during 5pm. Spend the entire day doing night shift and strangely I got a higher pay than morning shift.
Morning shift= 8am to 5 pm = $30))
Night shift=5pm to 10pm=$50+$30=$80($30 came from commission that I earned.)
Now my entire body ache so badly.
anyways later going to have a follow up with my CG leader at West Coast Plaza.Can't wait to go there.
School is about to start soon and I have not started my homework. I am sure gonna get killed when the time comes.=(I hope Nothing Will happen to me. =(

Managed to find this when I was cleaning up my table. This is my Primary school photo of the entire class. I found something written behind it.

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I don't usually put titles on my blog unless it is a really important. I feel terrible today although it is only 6am in the morning now. I really feel something is missing inside of me. I really hope that someone could just kindly message me today and talk to me. I want to talk to people but I am totally afraid that people will think that I am annoying. Today I am going out to work later to do some administration matters. It is gonna be a lousy day since I don't have any clue on how to do admin work. I guess I will just put up with a fake smile today. =)
Anyways, I just had this very funny dream yet again. I dreamed that I was falling from the sky at a very high speed and that I could see my entire past when I close my eyes. When I was about to land on to the ocean, I woke up again. Couldn't sleep since then. I wonder what does that mean?

Labels: Follow your heart and make the right decision

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Went to zone F service.managed to came just in time unlike my CG people who had to wait until the worship song ended. After service went out to eat with my CG people. Awesome people! Had dinner at 5 pm followed by lots of games and talking about other stuff and before I knew it, It was already 7 pm. Suppose to go celebrate birthday party but ended up didn't go since everyone didn't want to go.I feel so bad sia since I managed to convince my classmate(Remus) to go but I myself fail to go myself. Haha oh well.
3 weeks had passed and I have still yet to start on my homework.I can't wait to start on my homework(**What the heck am I saying here?!?!**) and complete it ASAP. It is now 12.09am so I think I should change the date to 21th june? maybe not haha! Good night everyone Hope you all enjoyed the party!

Labels: Have faith and be strong in yourself.

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Just came back from zone F camp. It was so great since I could feel the presence of God for the first time. I cried for the first time in my life. I really couldn't believe it that I could actually let tears flow freely. I just hope that no one saw that on the first day of the camp. =(Anyways I slept for a total of 12 hours at home. so tired now. Still thinking if I should attend the bbq party... oh well. Let's wait for the results then. Going back to downloading the game Metal Gear Soild: Peace Walker.

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Back from studying at West Coast Park Mac. I think I did not do anything there except messing around with messages. Haha! Totally feels like I wasted 3 hours( Or more perhaps) at mac there. On the bright side, We had a great time there! haha! I now totally feel awesome man! Although I keep having the feeling something is missing inside of me.maybe I will upload the overdue photos here later. =P

Labels: I don't wait for opportunities, I Seize it and let my dreams become reality

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40th post. yes~ haha! Finally VBS is finally over! Yes! After 5 days of non stop bible study. I managed to learn the 10 commandments. =) Managed to score 66/80 for my test. =( quite sad sia since all my CG friends all score higher... *Feels totally jealous*. haha. XD can't wait for tomorrow activities. So many things to do during the holidays. Haha! Feel totally great today. hope is momentum keeps up! :D

Labels: Nothing is impossible in life

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It has been awhile since I have last touch this blog. I don't know why I have been so busy this entire holiday. It was never like this when I was young.Is this really an improvement or am I just lying to myself again?? I keep having dreams about this person and I can't seem to forget it. This person keeps coming into my mind as if it was trying to tell me something. I really don't know what it means. anyway I want to share this dream I had about 3 months ago.I dream that I was falling head first from a very high place and when I land into the ocean, I could feel the sense of peace and security inside the water.I try to swim back up but something forced me down and before I ran out of oxygen, I woke up. Strange huh? I really wish I had that dream again but every since that I keep having nightmares. I really want to have a peaceful rest where I don't think about anyone especially her. I have no idea that she was playing around with me.... I feel so angry but I don't want to show it to her. I just remain calm and take it as if nothing has happen. I guess no one has found this blog yet. haha!

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It is only been the first week of the holiday and I feel that something is missing. This morning had this really terrible headache and don't feel like waking up but my Brothers force me to wake up.I really don't know what to do now since I had lots of problems lately. I can't decide what I want now for some reason..... =P
.I don't want to talk to anyone now but how I wish some one would just give me an advice on my life now...Oh well, Tomorrow better attend VBS since today I skipped class due to my illness. Better be careful now or I might fall sick again. I wonder what will happen next as I have done so much only to discover that I did not change anything.
I guess i only have 2 choices left. 1st would be to just give up trying to fix everything and make life go back to normal or 2nd, keep trying and hope that all problems will be resolved. Better ask my friends for opinion.

Labels: Love can make you very happy but it can also hurt you badly

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Can't update my blog for this few days cause of a terrible fever... I want to upload some photos that I have taken during the party but I really don't have the energy to go upload. Tomorrow is Vacation bible school(VBS). and here i am still sick. If this fever does not go down then I might be able to go VBS le.... =( .later still have wedding dinner at night.... I hope there won't be anyone who can convince me to drink alcohol again.... Feel totally terrible drinking alcohol and having fever at the same time....

Labels: I feel shattered by the events that has happen to me.

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