It has only been A week and I have totally forgotten about you. Today service with Pastor steve munsey was awesome! I can't wait for tomorrow Asian Conference. So many things to do but so little time.... All I could say this to you would be that I wish you all the best since this is how it is meant to be.I would just fade away and take it nothing has happen.Haizz... totally sick now. Having a Terrible cough and Still having muscle cramps all over me... I can't take this anymore.oh well..... Let's push on and clear N level(I need to get 10 points and below or my parents are gonna be disappointed with me). I now proudly declare that I am falling out of love.Let's try for the best! HAHA!

Labels: You have become a shadow to me

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Asian conference is totally great. so many people went there too bad never see any city harvest friends. can't wait to go for Sunday's Conference and can't wait for tomorrow service.

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I feel very depressed and sad but I can't let tears flow out. I feel very angry and violent but I can't seem to vent my anger in any way. It has only been a day and I feel totally happy that I had forgotten all the memories I had with you. They say I should just express my sorrow and anger but strangely, I don't feel anything at all. I tried to listen to all the sad songs and recall all the times we were together but I don't feel anything at all. why? Oh well, It is only 107 days left till the end of N levels. After my N's,I want to go for my O's and go to poly to get a great degree. I will chase after my dreams. I admit that I really liked you(If you are reading this,all I can say is that I have given up for you since this is how you wanted it to end) but I refuse to admit you are better than me. I will do whatever it takes to do better.I want to prove to my family and my relative that I am not worthless. I have wasted my primary school thinking that I am worthless. I will never go back to that piece of Sh*t place again. I want to respected. I want to have friends that will remain loyal.I want to be somebody and I want some one to remember me. I don't want to be forgotten in life. I don't want my life to spiral down into my primary school days.If you don't want to be friends with me, then I will just remain silent. I hope that our paths will never cross again.

Labels: Our paths will meet someday but by then, we may have changed.

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Today feels totally hopeless.... I don't even know what I can say now.... The feeling of being ignored. Why? I just only wanted to be friends with you why must you silent me?I guess I have no way of talking to you. I guess I will just have no choice. I think I will just erase the memories I have now and take a new head start. Studies is still my number 1 priority and I will never stray away from it. I will complete my O levels and get a degree. I want to prove the world I am not useless! But still, I feel terribly angry and sad at the same time. I only wanted to be friends with you why must you be heartless?

Labels: Your actions cut like a hot knife on butter

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I feel like I am fading away. I don't what to do now. i wish I had never done that. I know feel like I am a complete jerk and idiot for doing that. I really wish that I would done something better.If you have a problem please tell me and not keep it bottled up. I want to talk to but I don't have anyone I could talk to. If worse comes to worse, I would stop everything by Wednesday. There is no point since I have no way of changing this.Please forgive me. I beg of you. If you don't want me to be around with you, tell me and I will leave you alone. If you don't want me to talk, I will keep my mouth zipped. If you don't want to see me, I will disappear from your sight. If you don't want me at all, I will disappear from your life.If this is what it takes to make you happy, then I will do it.
I don't want things to go out of control anymore.I don't want history to repeat itself anymore. If you could just say out what you think of me, then I will feel less worried.I hope you are reading this but most likely you won't I guess. I don't to be labeled as a useless person again.

Labels: Why can't I have a happy ending?

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Today is kinda bored. Yesterday Red Rain concert was great. Although I feel kinda tired after the concert. haha! I think I went home at about 10pm with my CG friends. anyway my exams result are all out. I failed only Chinese. I managed to get A1 for math and Science. Gotten a C5 for English and my social studies and literature combined. F&N is not really great but still I managed to pass it. Haha! I am having second thoughts about going to young class tomorrow. I can't understand a single thing at all yet my parents want me to go. =( I am really at a lost for words now. I wish that I can have my own freedom. My blog kinda sucks especially with the skin I am using now. Didn't have the time to go find a custom skin. I think I will change this only after my N level unless some one could help me. =)

Labels: I lost too much to just give everything up. I will never go down without a fight

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Today totally sucks man. finally got back my results for every single subject and I totally screwed my Social Studies and Literature. I also failed my Chinese but I don't really care since it is always like this every year. overall i managed to get 2 A1 for my subject but I think I should get ready for the worse. Anyway the concert is on Friday and still I have no Luck trying to find people to go.

Labels: Help me cause I don't want to let you down.

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Been awhile since I touch this blog. Totally great day going to HOGC and then went to eat with the CG leader. haha! Somehow I have to invite people to the concert next week. can't think of anyone. =( In the end. I think I went home with Desiree at about 9 pm haha! Went window shopping with her again. Totally great day! Can't wait to enjoy my Sunday today although I think It has been cut short as I am now required to go back work. So bored!

Wish Everyone Would Clear Their Mid Year Exam!
All Jia You! Don't fail Now.

Labels: You will always give me courage and I will always give you strength.

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Yes! Finally MYE exams are over now! WoHoo!!! Finally can relax le. I think so far i did well for all subject except for Chinese..... totally screwed up that paper. haha! Can't wait for the concert that HOGC has hosted. Never been to a concert with friends. =) I wonder what my results will look like...... Oh well. Great Week today. haha!

Labels: Let's me be the person to break your fall.

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Exam fever again!! I really can't wait for exams to be over!! I want to relax already! I wonder how Will my results will be since my literature was horribly done. Help!! Arrgh!! Stress!

Labels: I really wish I could go out with you together and confess to you.

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Back again from studying... So stress right now! can't wait for the exams to finish.... I feel very disoriented after today. Having a headache now.... I wonder what will be installed for me? On the bright side, at least I had make some progressed today! yay! Finish downloading some games to keep me busy for at least a few months till Peace Walker and Birth By Sleep comes out but until then, I will remain bored. XP.

Labels: When will you notice my feelings for you? I wish you would treat me better.

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Feel totally darn awful today. I really had no idea it would turn out like this. It could be either the person does not know OR it knows and wants to find trouble.....I wish I could think it is the 1st option as I do not want to start another war with some one else..... I made a terrible mistake yesterday by acting like that. I feel very guilty till the point that I can't fall asleep for some reason. maybe I should go and apologize to her tomorrow as I think I had ruined the entire trip. Although I still think that He should not have done that as there are some jokes that are not meant to be said. I am really lost for words and lost in direction right now....Maybe I should just stop talking to him until I cool down.

Labels: It hurts when people joke about things that are sensitive to yourself.

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Totally great day going to HOGC(Heart Of God Church) today. all of them are so friendly. I have a sudden feeling of switching to HOG and not go City Harvest le.... =( I know some people will be sad but oh well... haha! Going to see movie tomorrow with Friends(Desiree,Suhana,Arif). Still can't stop thinking about the joke that she made about Iron Man 2. I wonder if I could pass my mid year since I feel relaxed( cheating myself) but yet I feel stress( Don't know if I am lying). haha!

Good Luck to everyone hope you pass your Mid- Year exam!

Labels: Can I confess to you about how I feel for you??

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