Been 4 days since i last updated this blog, don't know why so busy this few days...... I have been selected to attend the achiever day at 9th april..... I find this a disgrace since i only got the top for my F&N.... I really don't know why is it so difficult to score for F&N??? is it really that hard?? why must everyone say that i am a chief when i am just a lousy cook.... i can't even compare to my cousin cooking... I really feel pathetic since everyone sound like a hypocrite when they say i am a pro in F&N....anyway just came back from school due to some school work.. I really hope that everything will go according to what has been installed for me... I don't want anymore problem to surface up.... oh well... bye! =)

Labels: I had my life easily compared to other people.

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OMG!! not looking forward to today's activities as I am seriously in trouble now. My wound is not healed and it has gotten to a point where it cannot close up by itself.OMG!!! I guess i am required to go see a doctor now..... Why must the holiday end like this???I am totally going to regret this later on now.....Oh well... It is 7am here now and i can't sleep due to my wound and partly because of my brother..... I really miss the time where i had my own room,apprently it got "stolen" by my 2 younger brothers as they need it as a "study" room... Oh well..... I wish today would be a great day.....If not can at least salvage what I have now since tomorrow is going to be the school opening...... On the bright side, There is a praying session today but don't know what is the time so now I have nothing to do till 4pm i guess...... Oh well. XD

Labels: The pain of fighting a battle alone.

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I am in big trouble now....My wound at my hand has started to get a infection now and I am planning to see a doctor tomorrow.... A week ago they said that if it does not heal, I might have to go for a operation that would involve cutting part of my hand off if it does not heal....OMG!!! so darn scared now..... Hope it is not as serious as how they mentioned..... Guess tomorrow class will have to be canceled for me as I have to see a doctor.... Been skipping class for quite a while now but I am surprised that everyone on class can still remember me. =) anyways...... Today just came back from national universal hospital(NUH) after my mother is cleared from have heart problems..... However, It is detected that she is suffering from stress...I really hope that life would be better again now...... I can't understand why after every nightmare i experience, I would always wake up feeling so breathless and in cold sweat.....I don't want to shed tears anymore after CNY....I made a terrible mistake in life and because of this, I broke up with my gf..... I literally broke down after i press the end call button on Skype..... I really wish she would have a better life now.... OPPS!!! too much depressing things again.... haha!!!! Wish everyone a good night and hope everyone have a nice day!!Really have to thank everyone who helped me during my crisis at CNY!!=)

Labels: A sad ending is just another happy opening.

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Yesterday was epic man!!! WENT TO a class outing hosted by my class mate and we went to watch a movie called kidnapped(don't know if i spelled it correctly XD) anyways... It was great although all my friends never go there... In the end, reach home at about 10 pm+ cause went to the arcade alone cause nobody wanted to go there ...... =(. .... I wish the holiday would last longer as although it was 9 days, I only celebrated for 3 day.... the rest was on school work and CCA activities...... At least the family cooled down but everything comes at a price and i have paid a heavy price............ Opps! slipped out of my tongue again haha!!! not to make anyone depressing or leave anyone with a bad note so i am going to say 1 great thing that happen,I finally gotten out of the depressing mood now!! haha!! bye!!

Labels: Dream big but start small.

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Haha!!Everyone must be wondering why i blog so early in the morning huh?? Partly because my brother do not know how to sleep properly and would always disturb me when i am sleeping.....LOL!!!!.... just received the news that my mother has signs of a heart attack and she is required to remain at the hospital.....looks like everything will end sooner than expected... So far no one found out about this blog yet... haha maybe it won't be long now.....

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Just came back from bugis with Ryan,Adrian,ling li and bunch of other people... Went to the Jurong regional library to get a recipe book for my f&N coursework. Still cannot believe someone could not notice me at the mrt. My right toe still hurt from the pain.... Did not know that a high heel sandal could hurt so much!!! Ouch!! at least she said sorry to me haha!!! Oh well.. Will be visiting my mother soon at NUH now....Lucky today seem totally quiet and peaceful....At least my family bothered to give me peace since today is considered a memorable day..... can't believe that happen 5 years ago...... alot of things had changed since I entered this school... opps! said too much again....Oh well bye for now!

Labels: Courage is what brought me here today and i will remain strong till the very end.

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Yesterday was the day i went to High Rope challenge(HRC) at pula ubin. The activity there totally sucks and I did not enjoyed myself since everyone who were suppose to come never came......Although It is a pity that this is the last time i will ever go there unless I go there to take CI course which i know i will not survive.....10 day camp is not possible for me. oh well at least now i am free from school work already and my teacher assured me that i will get promoted. =) haha!!! Tomorrow will be the big day of my life now..... History will repeat itself again like what happen 5 years ago. I will never go back to that same situation where it destroyed my life. Opps! said too much again..... haha bye for now!

Labels: Happiness will always come to those who wait

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Well....After yesterday incident, Everything and i mean everything quiet down for once.
I can finally hear the birds chirp outside of my house and i can finally hear raindrops.
I guess it did really work out.Haha! Now it won't be long now,2 months left till judgement day arrive.Life isn't as simple as what everyone describe.Well.... So far none of my friends has discovered that this blog is active but I know sooner or later someone will......

Labels: If you don't want anyone to look down on you, then prove to them that you are strong.

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I just feel that life has been a down ward road and I can't find anymore hope in life anymore.I keep having my hopes crushed by people.I do not know what to say anymore for this piece of s**ty life anymore. I some time feel that god is testing me but if this were to be the case, when will this "test" end? I want a normal family and a normal life like everyone else.

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So fucking angry with some people now,I want to kill that damn person and make sure i chop him up into pieces...FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!! LOL said too much violent things again...... Sorry XD... anyway finish my math homework so now i am free from work..... haha bye


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Never knew i had a blog like this till now.... guess i can write what i want here......Pls ignore me as i am really a noob when it comes to blogging so if you have any suggestion pls feel free to tell me.

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